When I ponder about life in general there is so much for me to shout loud about with joy. I have my health. I am a senior seminarian student who can see light at the end of the tunnel. I have a roof over my head. I am not hungry. And most importantly, I have a love for God; the one who sustains me. Yet, as I deal with day to day challenges, I have a tendency to get sad because I might think I have been treated unfairly. I get upset because I might have expectations that things will be a certain way, but they turn out to be another.

Therefore, sadness will overcome me; will make me think and believe that I am not worthy of God’s blessings. The enemy wants to attack and convince me “why bother to live a clean and sober life, nothing is going right anyway.” I understand that to be sad is a natural emotion. What I need to continue to recognize is first, expectations are a setup for disappointments. Secondly, acceptance is the answer to those things that I have no control over. Lastly, I have to know that God can, I cannot, so I think I will let him. I can easily forget the gifts that God has bestowed upon me and become ungrateful.

Have you ever had many positive things happening in your life, yet one negative thing that occurs cause you to focus all your energy right there on the one thing that is undesirable? “Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the [one who is disappointed], and strengthens the powerless. Even youths will [be disappointed] and be weary, and young will fall exhausted; but those who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not [be disappointed]. (Isaiah 40:28-31, RSV)

The words of Isaiah brings me great comfort. All I have to do is have faith in the Lord, and have faith in myself. Amen.