Before entering the program my solution to problems I avoided was alcohol and a side of drugs as a chaser. That type of behavior was uniquely witty, at least I thought. I could blend and mix for the occasion, was known as a party girl that knew how to have fun.
Here is a fun fact. Come prepared to pay for fun when alcohol and drugs are involved.
What I know for sure, whenever I have to see a Judge, they are not free, and neither is a court date. I learned not so quickly to avoid the not so justice system because I tend to want to set things straight, but that is not always what the system request from me.
What I also know is my ego can cause me troubles because I genuinely cannot differentiate the truth from the false when I am insane. I could no longer continue to pay therapists, and there were many, purchase every self-help book, join countless gyms, and parade around, over and over again that it was someone or something that were my troubles. No. I had to admit I had a problem finally.
The reading helps me to visualize the contrast of what I gain from speaking my story with another person and them with me, as well. Together we can solve our common problem from alcoholism. As the Big Book states on page 84 of the fourth-edition, “We will seldom be interested in liquor. If tempted, we recoil from it as from a hot flame. We react sanely and normally, and we will find that this has happened automatically. We will see that our new attitude toward liquor has been given us without any thought or effort on our part.” It was usually the alcohol that drove me to seek other mood-altering substances.
What a unique and miraculous concept that in sharing words and not the bottle could keep me sober, and it doesn’t cost anything, but action to participate. The fun is in knowing that I don’t have to drink and drug to have fun. I don’t have to desire the attention, yet I have to give it away to keep it freely. I could have never dreamed I would have this astounding miracle free from alcohol and drugs and that the cost is not monetary but an allotted welcomed time.
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