~ Farwell 2020
As I glimpse over my journal, the terrain has been bumpy, and yet I am grateful that I stayed in the day
I cannot change anything about what has transpired and nor can I control what will happen
I appreciate being able to trudge this journey along with the intents of being okay
I noticed this year has been painful and insightful too
Zoom is a new thing that has bought me closer to new friends from all around the world
Some old friends didn’t make it because of COVID-19 and death from the disease of alcoholism
There is an awakening happening because of the murders of Breonna Taylor, George Floyd, and many others
All lives matter when black lives matter, so there is a reckoning with race
There have been irritation, so service work has been a must
There is an anomalous fierce in the air with retroject trying to come center
My comfort has come in the genres of literature and meditation
There is an importance to connect with my ancestors
Through this year, it’s been inconsequential to pick up drinks and drugs
Oh, what a miracle
Life will continue to unfold. I have to do the work
I will do my best and let my higher power do the rest
I chose not to be a chameleon through it all; even when my sweetie was in the hospital, I was fearful that he would die
I stayed the course through it all, one day at a time, through isolation and not being able to have my family close
Has it been a fragment of my imagination? No. Have I been isolated from others for 294 days? Yes.
It has been music and sharing and walking that brings about healing
I have tipped my awareness to my most inner prize, my inner child
Therapy and courage to face what I lost I am sure to find some of those fragments in this New Year
I am loved and will wait by staying in this day because it has been (things I must experience) = Time
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