My sweetie, my honey dip, was in the hospital two months ago, and I decided to rent “Medicine Man” to help calm my nerves. I had forgotten that the movie didn’t bring about tranquility, but I enjoyed the scenery and how the story ends with love. I am sure glad to have known how talented and sexy Sean Connery was. I hope he rests well because he warmed my heart over the years.
Today is Halloween; its origin was during the ancient Celtic festival of Samhain when people would light bonfires and wear costumes to ward off ghosts. I hope to always ward off the first drink by using the tools suggested by the co-founders of A.A, and they are Unity with others, provide Service work, and gain Recovery by not picking up the first drink.
With this being the end of the tenth month, the readings change starting tomorrow, reflecting more on the 11th Step. Naturally, this doesn’t mean that I should avoid practicing Step Ten in all my affairs as I move on, as well. In all actuality, the 10th Step is my favorite because it keeps the focus on my recovery. I have the option to take a look at those things that perhaps I am not willing to address today, like overeating sugar, but maybe tomorrow I might think differently. I appreciate how honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness to be willing have become a part of my daily mantra. I love the thought that I learned years ago while running marathons, that wherever I plant my feet, stay in that moment and move as my feet move, not looking too far ahead, and I didn’t want to look backward.
I happen to have high expectations of myself, so I know that I tend to have high expectations of others around me. I know that not all people are willing to go at my speed. That doesn’t mean that I have to slow down, but it does mean that I can meet other people where they are. My greatest lesson has been, “Everyone has their higher power.” Regardless if I want to believe that or not, all I have to do is recall how king alcohol sub-king drugs served their purpose as mine, once, and are still waiting to reclaim their roles of dominating my life if I fumble and fall.
I am not a doctor, and I am not a lawyer. However, I am a counselor, that council my clients. Yet I understand the final decision is their decision to make, and I give them the pros and cons of my experience, and the rest is not mines to handle. Similarly, when I turn my will and life over to the care of my higher power, the results are not mine. There is something magical about not carrying the burden of the outcomes, despite if they are positive or not so much. I don’t get to take the credit and be in conflict with myself or others when I can let go and let my higher power take the reins.
However, this action is rough for someone that considers themselves an overachiever. I struggle with keeping quiet. What I mean is when a client informs me of their decision, and if their choice is not the best I think they could have chosen, I will continue to give different scenarios to make sure they truly understand their decision. So in actuality, in some ways, I am persuading people to see my way of thinking. That’s why I try to stay in my lane per se and implement the Serenity Prayer for guidance. A confidant is helpful, a sponsor, or a business partner like a spouse.
But again, the final decision is in my hands to do the next right thing, and sometimes that is letting go and letting my higher power take over. The controversy can end anytime because usually, the dispute is within me.
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